Thursday, October 9, 2008

It is so hard

watching your pet die. you know they will eventually and i know it is the best thing to do but today was hard. I came home to dh wanting me to make another vet appointment. He is so optimistic but I think it is a loosing battle. this is his dog and seeing him cry just breaks my heart. I have seen him tear up during movies but to out right weep it the roughest part. I may seem heartless at times when it comes to this but this is my way of keeping myself back from it. I don't want to cry. this is the first time I am crying and it only cuz he is crying. I have a feeling on Tuesday we will be putting Lady to sleep. I guess her being sick has got me use to the idea of her being gone as she isn't begging, stealing or pleading for food, not gotten in the garbage or snuck out of the house. She is a ghost of what she was and really isn't Lady to me anymore.


Captain Scrappy said...

I am so sorry! I know how it is... my beloved German Shepherd mix was slowly losing his battle to live, so my mom and I made the decision to put him to sleep. I was I think 15. I stayed with him and watched him close his eyes and just fall asleep. I am crying thinking about it. It was very peaceful, but it is painful for us to go through. Pets are family members, so naturally it is difficult. I hope whatever happens it is peaceful for Lady.