Thanksgiving

Our plans are to go to the inlaws. Well today MiL had said something to me that made me feel like i really don't want to go. I asked her if she wanted me to bring Marble. She adored her when I brought her down. But she had said "not if she pee's in the house" WTH. Yes our dogs still have 'accidents from time to time" but not like before. they are pretty much trained but Bailey still will poop upstairs if I leave the door open. i don't know why she does this. And when you take your dogs to someone's house there may be an accident. just something that happens, why becuz they are not familar with the need to go outside and which door to go to. when they are in their house, they know what is and isn't expected. in a strangers house it is all new. Well when we go down to the inlaws we are going to have to bring ALL the dogs. yes, THREE. so on top of taking care of the kids I am going to have to watch for signs they have to go out. and just all that fun stuff. going to have to watch Marble to make sure she don't chew on things (she is after all still a puppy) just alot of watching (on top of watching the kids) yes, dh will be there. but like everything it all falls on me. and Truthfully, i rather he take the kids down and I stay home. I grew up without thanksgiving, it won't hurt me to miss it. I love my dogs but i hate having to go away and worry about these things. see usually we don't go away together. it is usually just me going, so dh would be home to watch the dogs. Can't afford to board them. this is what sucks about being away from family, if we were just an hour or two away then we could just go down for the day and leave the pups at home.

Parenting

Recently my parenting has been called into question by someone who really don't cross my mind but it bothers me that they think that I seem to be the white trash side of the family. I am not saying I am a perfect parent, as we all know we strive to be this but all of us at sometime fall short. I am going to say this, I do from time to time call my kids idiots, but I also call them very smart. it is a balance. There are times when the children aren't smart. Is idiot the right term to use. Probably not. Should i attempt to correct myself. Sure. But you know that there are times in a heat of the moment you just let things slip, cuz you are upset or what have you. There are times when i have lost my temper but despite how I can be, my kids will still come up to me and say i love you. i will tout more kiss on them and affection then the bad. They love me and they know i love them, despite them being idiots from time to time. I am a free thinker and that if you use a swear word in the correct context i will say to them, "that is correct that is shit but could you use blah instead" Swear words in our house are very rarely said from me, my kids have pointed this out. but i am not one to put a bad on the words. becuz if you do that will make them more fun to say. we use alot of replacement words for bad words but i have come to find that don't fly in school either when my son said Fricken in school. My son's also would NEVER flip a person off. when i talked to H about this, he gave me a definate "NO" as if to ask me, "why would you ever aske me such a stupid question" Good boy. but this said person aboves child does flip people off and my thinking is "did the kid deserve" cuz you know while they really shouldn't do that, sometimes it is needed. but like anything if you do it too much you loose the power of it. So if you go around flipping people off it looses it's oomph. and school isn't the place but maybe if you taught your child they are only words and words don't hurt he wouldn't have had the need to flip a child off over something said. yes they hurt your feelings but if you know you aren't that word then it shouldn't matter what they think. They are only being Idiots.

I am not perfect but I am teaching my children and my children are very bright. despite being raised 75% by me. My son just recently came up to me and asked me how to spell things and usually if i can, i will help him sound it out. this word he asked was PIT. i asked him. how do you spell IT and he said "I - T" I said ok then how do you spell PIT. and he learned to spell it himself. some days i will use it as spelling day and then just spell things as i talk. teaches them spelling and i have to say, while they are crappy and penmanship, they rock at spelling, reading and others. So no my kids aren't Idiots....but there are times that they are and yes I am going to call them on it. cuz if you keep raising them up, they are going to think they are perfect and without fault when we all know, we all have faults, We aren't perfect. We do the best we can. and if certain people don't agree with it, stop worrying about me cuz there obviously is something going on in your family you need to work on.

Fighting the Clock

It seems day in and day out I am just watching the clock for the next thing i have to do. I wish I could just spend a day and not watch the clock. not worry about my time and what i need to do or should have done. My day usually consists of 6am wake up where I get 30 min of me time, i usually spend that watching part of a tv show if it is an hour long one or a 30min show. then i get the kids up. where i spend my morning getting them going, making lunches. then at 7:20 yelling at them to get dressed and shoes on cuz they ignored the first bell that tells them that. then out the door about 7:30-40 take them to school. then Sam and I will run to the Gym, where she will play and I will workout. from there it is either to the store if i need to get something or home. where I will spend sometime on the computer, or cleaning or something while she watch tv. then make her lunch at 11:30, and when she is done brush her hair and then the bell goes off at 12, shoes on and out the door. drop her off at school, after that i will either use that time to run some errands or go home where i will spend time again cleaning, computer or catching up on some shows. but that time goes by fast cuz before I know it, the alarm goes off and it is time to run to the school to pick up the kids and then home where if it is a day that husband works i am rushing to get something made for his dinner. If i hadn't already started it during my precious kid free 2 hour when sam was in school. Getting the kids doing their homework. then feeding them after dh leaves for work. Once i get in the door I am already watching the clock for bedtime. then when the go to bed You would think that i could have some time but that is when the husband wants time. You have to also factor in the laundry that gets done. the baths, the dishes, the yard work, garbage day, dogs, kids, and all the running around. i don't get me time much. except for the time i spend on the computer. but no time to watch my dvr shows. no time to watch netflix movies, Right now I am counting down the time (yep again watching but this time the calendar. for when my weekend scrapbook crop is coming cuz i can't wait till i get 3 glorious days of ME. no kids, no husband and No dogs. Just me and my sisters and a few online friends scrapbooking away

Do you ever get something and then think do i really need that

Well that is where i am at with the Gypsy? i found it to be really neat but now I am thinking short of being able to store all my cricut cartridges on it. is it really worth it.. i dont' really design things using my CDS so really the DS on the gypsy probably won't be used. i don't need to design while I am on the go so really do i really need it. with the zoom buttons not working. I am now thinking of returning it all together. i just don't really need it. and while it comes with 2 gypsy cartridges, i don't really think it is worth the cost. So I am leaning toward sending it back

HOLY HELL CAN THEY HURT ANYMORE

My legs are absolutly killing me. they haven't had anytime to rest. Sunday i moved 3 couches, Monday i was on my feet all day cleaning. today (tuesday) i went with Camden to chaperone his class field trip. I have been on my feet from 8am to 3pm then with a few intervals of sitting down. OMG tomorrow i hope to just be able to sit and chill (as soon as i do a quick run through of the house, dishes, laundry, general pick up and maybe a swiffer of the floor) Then i hope to chill in my scrapbook room and accomplish something and watch a movie.

Camdens field trip was FUN. We went to a place called Gibb's Farm. you can learn more about it HERE I didn't know back in those days that families with alot of children, just borrow children from other families and they become their own. (like adoption) their beds were all so small. and it was neat explaining to the kids when we did the hands on thing what things are and what they are used for. We also saw and old school house. animals and a replica of a Sod house and how much room they had and lived in for 5 years before building the big house they had us tour. When we were in the Sod House the tour guide asked if we knew what the oil cloth around the inside kept out and i whispered in Camden's ear water and without me knowing he raised his hand and answered. He did it again but mumble the other answer about the basket. He told me as we were leaving that he wanted a sod house. (btw it was a log cabin built into the hill and called sod house cuz of the grass on the roof) they also dipped candles.

From there we went to the zoo. it was just a small zoo and i tried to tell the kids as much as i knew about the animals. and Camden loved it. he said he would like to go back and spend more time there (we only had 1.5hr most the time was at Gibbs) i told him we could as it was free and now that i knew where it was. maybe we will go back during butterfly time.

after school was Camden's teacher conference which as of right now he is doing well. his reading lexile number is good. considering that he really don't read much at home. but as far as behavoir he is doing great.

But me, i am ready for bed. i am beat.

So DRAINED

who said that having kids would drain you so. never met my husband. I think dealing with him is worse than dealing with the kids some days. The problem with him is he won't talk to me, tell me what is bothering him. he just goes around huffing and phttting everytime he sees me. he talks to me but if i don't give him an answer he likes then he huffs off. Right now it is about Supper. well i been cleaning all day, why cuz i am upset. so now it is 8 the kids have all ate but he is hungry. well he won't tell me what he wants. so he huffs off

How many kids do I have again

Sometimes it feels like i have 4 and not 3. Sometimes i feel like I am treated like a child when I am not.

Yesterday I woke up and took a long bath. went about my day and i knew that this would happen. When i get upstairs beat from moving 3 couches around alone, through doorways where a second person would come in hand. I wanted to lay down and cuddle with the man and watch tv. Right away i get upstairs and he says to me what he always says "go take a bath" WTF for, i took one in the am. But for some reason if he wants to have "relations" he wants me to bathe prior. But yet for him a quick wipe down is ok. or he can take a bath once a day and be ok. i don't tell him go take a bath. Yesterday I told him NO, i took one that morning. and so then he got huffy and pouting like a child. i went to lay on his shoulder and he said I am crowding him, making him hot blah blah. but you know damn well if i had taken a bath it would have been "come here lay next to me" Seriously i am so sick of being told to take a bath. it has been this way for a long time. Even my MiL sees it and lectures him on stop telling me to take a bath when i am a big girl. yesterday i was just tired, i just want to lay with him and watch tv. but instead I did lay on his chest but he didn't want me there and we watched tv which i fell asleep during but he pouted the whole time and then when the show was done told me to go to sleep. so i cried myself to sleep cuz i felt defeated cuz he was such a friggin baby cuz i didn't take a bath and I know I wasn't in the wrong but it felt like it. and now he is grumpy. but i am kinda wishing I would have took the bath cuz i am so tender from all the moving i did yesterday

I WANT

oh how i am learning to despise these two words. I hear them everyday. "I want Ice cream" "i want a snack" "i want McDonald's" "I want to watch something else" "i want Hunter to play with me" "I want my DS" "I want ____ for supper"

so here are some of my I WANTS

* I want to stop being treated like a short order cook. I don't want to clean out the oil cuz you want tostadas for dinner. I am serving such and such for dinner. i don't want you to turn your nose up at it and say "eww i don't like that, i want something else" i cooked for you to eat this. how can you say you don't like it if you never try it.

* I want to stop having to constantly pick up after you. You do not live in a barn. You can not expect me to always walk behind you picking things up. This is written toward both large adult child and my small birth children. You do not have to leave your cloths where ever you took them off. We have a laundry sorter down stairs and a laundry shoot upstairs USE THEM

* I want to stop having to always pick up the dog crap. Exspecially if you are standing right next to it. why do i have to walk up the stairs to pick it up when you are fully capible to do it.

* I want to stop being treated as if cuz i don't work i have all the time in the world to do everything. I am not only doing the job of a mom but half the job of the dad. the repairs, the lawn care, the garbage, I am doing those too.

* I want to be able to sit down and watch my tv shows without worrying about "if i do this will it come and bite me in the house work" or hearing from a small child how "i want to watch something else" one can only take so much pbs, pokemon and scooby doo. i don't even get the luxury of watching phinus and ferb and more cuz stupid dish and their stupid dispute with disney.

* I want to be able to take a bath in the am and not have to repeat before bed just becuz the man says so. Why do i have to take 2 baths and you only have to take one.

*I want to stop hearing the words. "i don't need to" Well obviously if you want X then yes you NEED to do Y exspecially if i said so. it isn't too hard to clean your room every day if you do it every day but yeah if you wait 2 weeks it will become overwhelming.

* I WANT more me time. i haven't scrapped in a long time. i don't have the time. i think i would more if i had my DVR hooked up so that i can watch tv in here too. cuz then i could catch up on my shows and scrapbook. but i am trying to get the house in order so that eventually i can use the 2.50 hours that Sam is in school to scrapbook.
I am sure there are more I WANTS but i really dont' want to think about it anymore

10 things I did today

taking a page from my Bff's blog. she got it from another friends blog.

1. Got to take a relaxing bath this A.M before the kids got up.

2. Got to actually watch a few shows on my DVR. Still so many to go. I did decide to toss two new shows that i just don't think i will ever get to watch. probably will get cancelled. if they don't and i hear buzz i will watch online or wait for the dvd

3. Went with my bff to shopko to get my new couch

4. Had lunch with said freind. would have been nice to have a sit down instead of fast food but beggers can't be choosers. it was still nice.

5. took out the old couch, moved the burgandy one to the front room, new couch to the living room, old couch to the porch for Sat to take to the recycling center

6. Front room carpet shampooed,

7. Kids fed and happy

8. (ok these next few will come in an hour but i don't want to leave this hanging) Kid bathed

9. Laundry done, kids cloths hung up while they are in the bath

10. Stories and tucking in

Samantha's first week of school complete

I already see a change in her after one week. She loves going to school and practically runs to the door. start of day routine is going well. I still push her to the right order of things but i can do it from the door. Eventually i will wean off of that and maybe i will be able to just open the door and and watch her go in and do things she needs. though i think i may have to help come winter. right now we don't have boots and snow pants to worry about. Eventually i will let that go to. She will have to learn to do it on her own becuz in Kindergarten i won't be there to help her for recesses. Also she hasn't pooped in her pants in over a week. Again before bath she told me she had to poop. Sat on the toilet and went. so far it is only before bath (that is 2x a week) but that is better than pooping in her pants 1x a week. Potty chairs are gone (well one is still upstairs but that will be going out too) She uses big toilet and without those potty insert thing too. Next hurdle wiping her butt on her own ;) I told my dh when she was ready she would get it. she would stop. nagging, yelling, scolding and punishing don't help. She got it when she was ready and that is all you can do. Potty training goes smoother if you wait for the child to be ready then pushing it. less accidents and clean up. She was Pee trained in days. poop took longer but think if she went more often it would have been sooner.